Change #1 - Growing Our Family

As you all may know, Luke and I had planned to start trying for a baby when he got home from an Army camp late August. You also know how God has been stretching my trust in Him with this issue. Praise God! He showed His amazing grace to me by not making me wait long. Luke and I found out on Thursday that - We're Expecting! -
We tried to keep it a secret for a while, but apparently, good news travels fast. It's ok though, I think my husband is relieved to tell everyone.
I think this news has brought us closer. Distance makes the heart grow fonder, but so does having a baby (well...in our case at least). We've got both under our belt now and life is good!
My due date is May 24, which makes things interesting as Luke graduates May 22. Pray the baby waits at least until after the ceremony!!! That could be interesting!
Thanks for all of your prayers and your excitement as we begin this new & exciting chapter in our lives!

Trying...

As I'm sure many of you know, we've been trying for a baby for a whole month now (OK, OK...more like 3 weeks, but who's keeping track). Do you know that I'm already getting so nervous about not being pregnant?! Luke keeps reassuring me that if it doesn't happen this month, we'll (happily) keep trying. But I am struggling so much with the realization that this may not happen when I want it to. There! I said it! I WANT to be at the point that I'm OK with God's timing, but right now I'm at the point that if He wants us to get pregnant this month, that will be the only way I'm OK with His timing!

Seriously, someone needs to stop me. I have names picked out, the theme of the room picked out, the baby shower invitations picked out, who's giving my work shower picked out, who's giving my church shower picked out, someone has even bought me an outfit (make that 2)!!! I will be crying in my pillow if this doesn't happen soon. I should probably stop planning so much, don't ya think? :)

How did this motherly need creep up on me? I can't even look at a baby without welling up with emotion! It's ridiculous!

Anyone have advice on how to be patient and rest in God during this time? I'll take it! Anyone have a revelation that I'm going to get pregnant soon? I'll receive that one too!!!!

"Normalcy"

Isn't normalcy surprisingly wonderful? It's amazing how much we take it for granted and even get restless with it. When our world is rocked though or change happens, we tend to cling to it as if it was our best friend.
I'm not sure what my definition of normal is. I guess it would be anytime that Luke is home. I know it's crazy, but one of my favorite things to do when Luke is here is to go grocery shopping at the commissary. Most people loath the thought of grocery day, but for me, I get to have a glimpse into our future. The number one positive is that I get great deals! They even have a section just for sale stuff! It's the best! Number two is that I get to be with the heros of our nation and I get to pretend like I live among them. It's still a novelty to me, military bases. That's, most likely, where we'll raise our children and have so many good memories. I get excited just thinking about it!
I think that's why I can't step foot in the commissary when Luke's gone. It makes me acutely aware that I'm alone. That things aren't normal. The one I vowed to spend my life with doesn't always get to be with me.
Luke got home last weekend and ever since I've been so thankful for the nights we get to share, for the excitement and the fast beating of my heart when I hear him unlock the door to the apartment after a day of work & the days that we get to take Lexi for a walk.
Always appreciate the time with your spouse. Never take for granted the little "hellos" you get to say to each other at the end of the day. Relish in the times you get to do the "every day things" like getting groceries. Keep in mind that "normal" = wonderful.
I know I won't...